- I have only recognized two people in my entire life who had actually black hair. By that I mean that it shone blue in the sun, not reddish or brownish. Not dyed either! A Chinese girl and an Indian boy.

- I will say something about Japanese porn. No it's not about eels.wmv or japscat or anything. I just hope they don't kiss like that in real life.

- I despair that I will never regain hope in life. I miss caring about the things I used to care about. I have hope but no real plan to achieve the betterment of myself. I feel damaged, weirdly like an abused child, and don't know if I'll ever get back to that point again. Er the point of going out and doing constructive things without feeling like shrinking away. And honestly I cannot tell you what stops me from going to lectures and seminars, free shows, gardening projects, and the like. srsly wtf